quintissence...maybelline "great lash"

we have to describe a "quintissential" item...meaning the epitome of that item, and i chose mascara because everyone knows there is only one mascara that stands above all, and that's maybelline's great lash.

if you're looking for the quintissential mascara, and i know all you guys are, i would have to say to go with maybelline great lash. know for it's neon great cover and hot, yet soft pink bottle color with pitch black "GREAT LASH" letters written across the bottle, maybelline's great lash was the first modern mascara ever made, created in 1913 by a chemist named t.l. williams for his sister mabel. he worked for maybelline. it was, and still is made from coal dust mixed with vaseline petroleum jelly. the first mascara ever made in this world was developed in the 19th century by eugene rimmel, and in france and italy, people still call mascara "rimmel" after the person who came up with the idea. maybelline's great lash is also known for it's huge success, making the thinnest eyelashes into thick, long, beautiful lashes full of life--i would know from experience. there are never any clumps or blobs left on your eyelash, sticking out like a fly, but the perfect brush with the perfect formula gets smoothly applied every time, even if the applier isn't very experienced. the mascara not only says that it's the quintissential mascara, being named "great lash" or seeing how it was the first modern mascara and it's still around, it shows accurate, consistent results. and this is why maybelline great lash mascara really is the most quintissential of all.

that's all...em...♥

it had to stop somewhere...

so, i kept up my character analyzing, and i'm glad i did, because i feel that in many ways, every character kind of stopped growing in exodus. or, more than in the previous books anyways...

ORLEANNA-she was someone i really admired and looked up to, and she still is in exodus. even though sometimes she seems not as strong as before, i think it took a lot of courage and faith to leave nathan to kinda of start over. i see growth because now i feel that she's doing what she wants to do, which shows that shes a strong enough person to do what she wants now, not just what nathan wants her to do. i give her major props for doing this.

RACHEL-this book made me hate rachel even more. i think she's spoiled and conceited. she thinks the world revolves around her, and it doesn't. i really didn't appreciate what she said about leah's children. i mean, they're her nephews for crying out loud. and all she says about them is that she doesn't know how leah can love them if they're half black. that is so, so rude to me. i really don't like that she would say something like that--especially about her little sister. she's very immature and i don't think she should be so successful.

LEAH-leah disappointed me this book. she's the one i've seen constant growth in throughout the whole entire book, and this book, i didn't feel nearly half the amount of growth that i've been feeling from her. like brent said, i really feel that her passages were repetitive. i'm very glad her and anatole are happy together with four sons, but i don't really see her learning things any more. and now she has this kind of lost feeling because she lives in africa and she's pretty much the only white one there. i feel that she belonged better when she was in the congo with her family. it really disappointed me...

ADAH-adah somewhat disappointed me in this book, too. like i said in class, i'm very happy that she found a way to fix her limp and is very successful in life. i'm glad she's happy about fixing her physical disability, too. but, at one point, she mentions how along with losing her physical disability, she's lost her "ada" or palindrome-ness. and, this makes me really sad, and somewhat makes me think that all this growth she's gone through during the story and even before it has been for nothing. this is how i always thought of adah. she was always the genius with cool palindromes and she always kept me guessing. i couldn't wait to hear what she would say about a certain situation because i love how she looks at things. but, this book she lost that, and that makes me sad.

that's it...can't wait to see what happens next book...
em...♥

even more growth?

for the bel and the serpent, i did more character analyzing. so here it is:

ORLEANNA-she's such a strong person, mother, and wife. it's tough to lose a child, especially since ruth may was her baby. i think she handled her death in the most impressive way any mother could. personally, i don't know how i would have lived if that happened to me. she kept herself very contained and she didn't complain or make anyone feel sorry for her, and that gives me a lot of respect for her--even more than i had before. she didn't deserve this, and she proved that.

NATHAN-i still don't like nathan that much. but, after i was informed that nathan was planning to baptize ruth may with the congolese children, i felt a little bad for him. ruth may's his baby too, and he was going to baptize her with the congolese children and he had the best intentions for that. even though he doesn't get that the congolese people don't really want him there, he still tries so hard to win them over, so i have to give him at least some credit, right?

RACHEL-she's still wanting so hard to go home, and i don't blame her. their situation isn't exactly the brightest situation, but the other members of the family have learned to make the most of it, and rachel's the only one who hasn't. and since she hasn't, she kind of deserves to be the most unhappy one. i mean, that sounds bad, but since she looks at the situation negatively, she should be the one that gets the negativity, right? maybe not, but i believe in karma and bachi, so she kind of asked for it by not making an effort to be optimistic.

LEAH-she's still growing and growing to me. every book, she gets more and more wise and successful. she knows how to get along in the congo. she knows what to do in certain situations when other people wouldn't know what to do. she really thinks about things a lot, especially about adah and everything that has happened. i like leah and leah more and more each and every book just because she keeps growing and learning...and, teaching. she teaches the reader things, she teaches the congolese things, and she teaches her family things. she's a natural teacher.

ADAH-she's still so wise and practical. she may be disabled, but she's one of my favorite characters because of what she makes of the situations handed to her. she makes decisions that nobody else would make, because she's so smart. everything has a funny way of working out for adah, but this is kind of a karma and bachi thing, too. because adah's the one who deserves the best luck out of everyone. she's asks for it, and cleverly asks for it. she knows what she's doing, and everyone else knows it.

RUTH MAY-ruth may dying caught me off guard. i mean, i had a feeling someone was going to die in this book, but the person being ruth may didn't really make sense to me, to be exact...i mean, she's the only one who gives the reader straight out facts. and, those are vital to the story. nobody else gives the reader the facts straight out. they all are old enough to have their own opinions and stick to them. they don't agree with both their parents and they don't point things so flat out and bluntly. i liked ruth may. and, she somewhat seemed the most genuine to me. she wasn't afraid to talk to the congolese children in the beginning, when everyone else was. she wasn't afraid to play with them. or bluntly state how fat their stomachs were. she was so innocent and willing. so young.

okay, more later.
em...♥

procrastination's a bitch

so, today in class, mr. watson asked the class how many of us felt behind on our blog entries this cycle, and many people raised their hands, including me. when i think about it, i forgot about one of them, but the other two i was just waiting until 11.30 tonight to start them. and, our blogs entries are due at midnight tonight. haha...

and, when i think about it, i procrastinated and it's supposed to end up teaching me a lesson because i'm supposed to stress out because i have no more time. but really, this is my only homework tonight because i did the rest at school today. so, procrastinating wasn't that bad in this situation, but it would have been pretty freaking cool if i had absolutely no homework tonight, right? but, that can't be fixed now, 'cause it's in the past.

so, i'm just about the world's best procrastinator ever...and i mean ever. so, this is what i do. i do my easy homework at school. the math and asian homework, sometimes reading poisonwood bible. and, i don't so this at school because i'm a good student, i do this at school so i won't have to take home the books! haha...plus, i don't have a math book so i can't it at home. oh, and asian is my 7.30 class and math is my 8.30 class. so, i never have a chance to do that homework before the class on the day it's due.

now english on the other hand...i'm not so hot at english, and it takes some thinking. you don't just copy a problem and punch some numbers into a calculator then get the answer...or read a passage in the asian binder and answer questions the text can answer for you. no, english actually has some genuine thinking involved...which isn't my favorite thing in the world, 'cause i'm actually quite a lazy ass person!

so, i procrastinate. and, basically, i shouldn't, but i do. it's hurt me before, but i always end up fixing it somehow...i don't know how, so don't ask me, but it always ends up okay for me.

...which indirectly sucks because i know it will come back and bite me right in the ass one day...damn
em...♥

essay...again

so, we had to do another sat practice essay...and it was about moral choices and social issues.

most of our schools are not facing up to their responsibilities. we must begin to ask ourselves whether educators should help students address the critical moral choices and social issues of our time. schools have responsibilities beyond training people for jobs and getting students into college.
-svi shapiro

should schools help students understand the moral choices and social issues?

yes, i think that schools should help students understand moral choices and social issues. they shouldn't decide the choices we make, but they should show both sides of every situation, and then let the students decide for themselves.

for example, sex, drugs, and alcohol are all big choices that students face these days. i don't think the school should say, "go out and do all these things!" but i don't think the school should say, "don't do these things!" students are old enough to make their own decisions, and i'm sorry mentors (including parents) but, no matter how much you tell your student not to do something, there's a good chance they will anyway. so, your best bet is to give them all the options.

i work for a health center, and we put on plays about smoking tobacco and sex for various middle schools and high schools. in both plays we give the audience (which is always students) all the options. in the play about sex we show them two situations: one couple choosing to be abstinent, and another couple having unprotected sex. we show how nothing happens if you're abstinent, and we also show what can happen if you have unprotected sex. we say that nothing can happen, which is true, but we show the girl getting pregnant and getting an std because her boyfriend has been cheating on her. so then we talk about all the contraception methods you can use-including abstinence. we also give the options if you're pregnant: parenting, adoption, or abortion. we let the audience know that this doesn't always happen, but it can, and we just want them to know all the options and want them to take their decisions for themselves and by themselves.

this is what we should do in school. we can encourage a certain one (my health center encourages abstinence and condom use) but we should definitely give all the options and consequences so students know the situation. after the educating, the ultimate decision should be up to the student. and if the student ends up in a bad situation, at least they'll know what to do because they learned correctly about it. but, the educators should always be willing to help, too.

so, yes, i do think schools should help students understand moral choices and social issues. they shouldn't make their decisions for them, but they should give them all the options. we have to remember that no matter what, students will do what they do. but, if they're educated, at least they'll know everything about the situation. and then they might even become more comfortable talking to people about it. and the more you talk to people, the more you learn.

okay! there you go!
em...♥

more growth?

so, here's my lit. circle post for this cycle: more about the growth of the characters.

NATHAN-he seems to not be growing at all. he's still set on his stubborn idea to help the congolese people even though they obviously don't want his help. i do see him caring a little for his family when he helps rachel out of the marriage situation, though. and i appreciate that, because if he had just sat back and watched what happened with rachel and tata ndu, i would have been very disappointed as him being a father.

ORLEANNA-i think that she hasn't necessarily grown throughout this book, but unlike nathan's case, it's not a bad thing. i don't think orleanna really needs as much growth as some of the other characters. she continues to be a good mother and loyal wife, even though she could have a much better life without nathan. she pulls through for everyone, even when she's not feeling well. and she teaches all her daughters useful information-from practical to motherly.

RACHEL-i still see hardly any growth in rachel. but, in this book you do start feeling bad for her because of her situation. being the oldest daughter, she's expected to take care of the other daughters and is asked to marry tat ndu. and, she doesn't handle the situation in the best way possible, but she handles it all right. she should always be taking care of her younger sisters, but since she doesn't, to change completely because her mother's sick is quite a task to fulfill. and, she does it. which makes me have a little more respect for her. but, i'd like to see a little more growth from rachel

LEAH-i am still seeing growth in leah. i love seeing growth in her character because fascinating to see her straying from nathan a little more each book. she's now teaching the boys anatole teaches, and even though they don't give her their full attention, she keeps teaching them. she's constantly asking people (but mostly anatole) questions, which makes her smarter and smarter as each day goes by. the end is the part i see the most growth in her, though. during the awful night (the night of the ants) she realizes she's left adah behind. and there she goes again thinking about if she'd left adah behind before.

ADAH-to me, adah is constantly growing. she's so smart and she just learns from everything. she could be the most suicidal person in the world, and people would give her special attention because of her disability, but she doesn't do that. she does things for herself, and she makes her own decisions (like choosing not to talk--not not being able to talk). she's a very wise girl, and many people know that.

RUTH MAY-i didn't see much growth in ruth may this book, but that's because ruth may hardly says anything in this book. she stays sick pretty much the whole book. and in the ladder part of the book, we find out why she's sick. since she has hidden all her malaria pills and not been taking them, it shows how young and immature ruth may really is. she didn't take them simply because she didn't like them. it's a very childish explanation. if she had known she would have gotten sick, her mind set might have changed, and she might have taken all her pills. but, we really never know.

okay, that's it for now.
em...♥

parallels

so, we watched this movie the mosquito cost (i think that's what it was called) and had to draw parallels between that movie and pwb (poisonwood bible). so here they are:

*both families trying to help people of a completely different race in a far away place

*both families the father was behind the main idea

*both families had twins (lame, but still a parallel)

*both families were trying very hard to stick it out because the father wanted to stay

*both fathers make wrong decisions

*both fathers seem to care more about their mission than their family

*both fathers become more and more hated as the story goes on

*both stories have a local man helping the family along the way (mr. hattie and anatole/nelson)

that's about all i can think of right now, but i think there will be more after we finish pwb, yes?
em...♥

growth?

last cycle, for twisted lit circles, i analyzed three characters: rachel, adah, and nathan. since both leah and i were character analyzing, we decided to split up the characters so we could analyze them with more depth.
this cycle i continued with analyzing characters so i could see their personal growth throughout the book. instead of just doing three this cycle, i did the four daughters.

LEAH-i have seen so much growth in leah this book. especially her first pasaage. she shows the friendship with pascal, and explains how jealous she really is of him. we see a side that we haven't seen of leah before because she wishes she wasn't white for the first time in her life, and we see her think a different way about nathan. through this point in p.w.b. we see leah as kind of the "daddy's girl". she seems upset at her father for bringing her up a certain way and not that way pascal was brought up. i also thinks this friendship shows growth because earlier in the book, leah sees ruth may playing "mother, may i" with the congolese kids, and she wishes she could do that as easily as ruth may can. and in this book(the revelation), leah lets herself accept one of the congolese kids.

RUTH MAY-i haven't seen that much growth in ruth may, just a little. she is still so innocent and young, she doesn't really know what's going on. even though she's the first one to acccept the congolese children and play with them, she's been like that from the beginning of p.w.b. it's not like anything that happened so far in p.w.b. would have made her change her mind. she still repeats what her mom and dad say, and she still gives us mostly facts and not very much opinion.
what i did like in one of ruth may's passages was the paragraph about the bugs and the light. ruth may says:

the mosquitoes and big white moths came in the door and went out the windows. some of them decided to take off their coats and stay awhile, so they flew in the kerosene lamp and got burned up. that is what happens to you if you're bad and don't go to heaven, you go and get burned up in the bad place instead. so that night our house was the bad place for the congolese bugs. ha ha (157).

this is definitely a metaphor and she even states that it's a metaphor, probably because of her young age, but it's still a metaphor, and she didn't get it all from her parents, so it shows some growth in ruth may.

RACHEL-i haven't seen a lot of growth in rachel either. she still isn't used to the idea of staying in the congo for a while, and she still wants to go home. we still constantly hear her talking about materialistic things such as diamonds, even though they are relevant because they are plenty in the congo, and picking at her cuticles when mr. and mrs. underdown are arguing with her parents about moving back to georgia. because she wants to go back to georgia.

ADAH-adah is my favorite character. i think she is constantly growing and will keep growing because there's nowhere she can stop. she is very relaxed and practical, which is what i like about her. i like that when she knew there was something behind her that one time in the forrest, she kept calm and just walked calmly home. snce she knew it was alive, she probably figured if she doesn't bother it, it should leave her alone, like any living thing in this world. i especially like how she describes things to show you what happened, instead of straight out telling what happened. like, at the end of the revelation, she shows us a picture of knowing methuselah dead. she doesn't say, "methuselah died!" instead she talks about all his feathers on the ground. i like showing a lot better than telling, and that's what adah does.

so, that's basically it about the four daughters and how they've grown.
em...♥

nathan's walk

at our school, we walked throughout our campus for about 15 minutes and then were told to describe the campus through the eyes of one of the characters' from the poisonwood bible. mine person was nathan, and he was hard but easy at the same time. i had a hard time because he's not one of the narrators in the book, so i don't really know what his "voice" sounds like. but, at the same time, that was the easy part, cause i could write it the way i thought his voice was.

the school we went to today was very nice at the beginning. the campus is lucious green and beautiful. the students must have a wonderful time learning in this environment. at twenty-five past the hour, the campus filled with high school students. that' when things started going downhill. the students obviously had a dress code of some sort, because i saw no knees and only certain colored shirts. but, it was not a typical christian school. i expected uniforms--not a dress code, and i was quite disappointed. another thing i disliked was the fact that the main building on the campus was called cooke hall, and it was all the techers' offices and their lounge. the chapel was very far away, and i think it should have been right where cooke hall was situated--the main building on campus. the students spoke fouly and gave me weird looks because they knew i didn't fit in--just like the kids in the congo.
i thought it was going to be different, but it was really quite the same.

okay, that's it from nathan's point of view...
em...hearts;

rachel.adah.nathan

i was the character analyst for genesis and i was in kristina and leah's group. and, we did very well, may i add rachel: i wrote about her in the reading quiz but i said that she was the character i identify with the least. she's conceited and spoiled and i hate how she talks. she talks about how all the kids in the congo love her hair and they're all staring at her cause they're jealous of her hair. but, of course, there could be other reasons they're staring at her, she's just so self-centered, she thinks they adore her. she always talks about tangible items like her hair product or hand mirror or nice dresses, and that doesn't seem like the most important think in the world to me. she's rude, too, cause in her very first section, she thinks to herself "we got fumigated with the odor of perspirating bodies" (22). but that's not what irritates me...what irritates me is that right after, she says, "hey ade, leah, aren't you glad you use dial? don't you wish everybody did?" (22). that is just so completely rude to me! like, you can say it to yourself, but don't say it out loud, right? adah: she's a genius! i was a little confused about her character in the beginning, cause i wasn't sure if she was retarded or if she was a genius, but once you read her section from page 55-63 about the palindromes and reading backwards, i came to the conclusions that she's a genius. people may look at her and think, poor girl, but really, they don't even know how smart she is cause she chooses not to talk. it's not that she doesn't know how to talk--she chooses not to talk cause she thinks it's a waste of time...and, she's actually quite accurate. i love talking, but many times, it's unnecessary. nathan: we had a huge conversation about him in class today. i think we get to know a lot about him even though he's not one of the narrators. he's not one of my favorite characters because i don't like that fact that he beast his daughters and thinks he's helping the congolese people when he's really just forcing unwanted opinions into their minds. i think he needs to realize what he's really doing for them and he needs to step back and change his approach. he needs to be willing to accept change, and he's not yet, so nothing's really going well for him up to this point. so far, we don't know much about the characters, and i'm sure they'll change throughout the book. so, i'm gonna character analyze throughout the whole book to see how much each character changes and why. em...♥

resolution to my problem-kind of

so, last night i wasn't able to post a commonplace after i came back from work cause my mom didn't want me on the computer...even for homework...cause she's like that... so, i talked to one of my bosses and he said he can talk to my other boss and figure out a schedule where it's like i'm on call, but not. like, i'll be called to pick-up rehearsals (which are rehearsals within 24 hours before a show to get you back into the swing of things, fyi) and just only do shows when they absolutely need me, cause i know all the parts now and they don't need me at rehearsals as much as they do at shows but, i kinda wanna do it all...like i wanna be there for rehearsals and shows, cause you know how when you miss a day of school and you come back the next day and you feel out of whack cause your friends came up with some new inside joke that you missed cause you weren't there? yeah, well that's how i feel when i miss rehearsals and shows for my job, and it sucks cause for us, inside jokes stay around for a long time... so, i still hate this and still don't know what to do...so if you guys have any suggestions, please let me know, cause right now i'm pretty desperate... em...♥

i hate this

right now i am really sad and mad and screwed up cause i had this huge fight with my mom last night about managing my time. i know i do have a lot going on right now, and that's fine with me cause i absolutely love having a busy schedule...i think it makes me feel useful in this world or some shit like that... so...i'm in this musical, beauty and the beast at saint louis, and if you don't know, musicals take up tons of time. a rough estimation shows that for every minute of showtime in front of an audience, the cast and crew needs two hours to rehearse it. two hours for one minute! that's crazy...i just opened this weekend, so i've been busy with rehearsals and shows this weekend, and it's gonna be like that for the next two weeks... i also have school, which i normally keep under control, except recently i've been getting behind in my work, especially english cause i don't spend a lot of time at home by a computer... i have a job which is also performing. i go to various middle schools and teach them about the danger of smoking tobacco. i also go to various high schools and tech them about teen pregnancy and std's. because i perform and middle schools and high schools, i need to take time from my school schedule to work, which is what i did this morning. i also have to go to various trainings every so often so i can be educated about the stuff i educate people about. i really love performing--it's my passion--and i've seriously thought of dropping out of school and just performing for the rest of my life. but, i know that unreasonable...well, i'm supposed to go to this tobacco training for six hours on saturday, but i can't cause my mom said so. only, i think i can, cause i have nothing going on during that time and i won't have to laze around the house all day. but, my mom thinks it's too much cause i had a three hour rehearsal last night, a three hour rehearsal tonight, a show earlier today (which takes three hours counting set-up and break-down), and another show on thurdsday. so, she thinks i shouldn't go to the training on saturday cause it's too much. ...only, i came late to the rehearsal last night, the show today, and i'm coming late for the show on thursday cause i have school or beauty and the beast. so, i haven't even been working full time. and now i want to quit. as much as i love this job, i just wanna quit cause i hate not being able to do something i love. it just kills me cause i'm physically capable of doing it, but she thinks it's too much. only, ow does she know what's too much for me, she just thinks she knows what's too much for me. but she really doesn't so, now i have to quit this job, which i've been pulling off for over a year, and i love it so much...and in 45 minutes i have another rehearsal, and i'm gonna tell my boss i'm planning on quitting. i'll commonplace after to let you know what's going on. bye for now...em...♥

sat essay reflection

i think all the sat practice essays i read were good. they all had intro and conclusion paragraphs, and they all had two or three main body paragraphs supported with facts and observations. what i noticed is that the practice essays were kind of like our this i believes cause they both had our opinions, facts and observations proving why we make sense, our individual voices shining through, and relatable information. i thought all the essays i read were pretty darn good for something we threw together in 25 minutes with no warning! good job, guys! em...♥

sat practice essay

so, this was just a fast little essay mr. watson decided to make us do yesterday.
we only had 25 minutes to write it, and this is what i came up with:

i do not think the media determines what is important to most people, however i think that the media influences what is important to most people.
on blog sites, such as myspace or facebook,or even this one, many people have multiple pictures of themselves, family, and friends all over their site. before i had a myspace, i didn't take too many pictures of myself or my friends. but after i became a myspace member, i noticed myself taking more pictures to post on my page. whenever i took a funny picture with my friends, i would say, "myspace!", meaning that that picture would get posted on my page. even though i've taken more pictures since i got a myspace, i don't set up dates just to take pictures for myspace. i let the pictures happen, and then think about posting them on myspace.
when i see ads in magazines with slim, tall, gorgeous girls, i admit i become quite jealous and self conscious. before i read magazines, i was perfectly fine with my body, and had high self esteem. but once i started reading magazines, i realized how opposite i was from the models. i see saw myself as short and chunky, not slim and tall like the models. i became more self conscious and worries about how i looked more often. even though i was worried about my appearance, i didn't become overly obsessive. i've never had an eating disorder, and i never will because for one thing, i love food, and for another, even though i worry about my body, i'm fine with it most of the time.
i watch many types of movies, but mostly chick flicks. they influence me a lot,but don't completely determine what's most important to me. after watching a chick flick, i usually catch myself talking how the characters did in the movie, or recalling how extremely adorable some skirt was. yet, i never find myself going out to buy that skirt, or continue talking the way the characters did. i might find myself quoting the movie when the time is right, or trying on that exact cute skirt if i happen to come across it by accident. but, i never find myself purposefully trying to be just like the characters in the movie.
overall, then media somewhat influences our decisions and makes us re-think what's important to most people. although they don't change us completely, they change us a little.

i just realized how extremely crappy this essay is, and my only excuse is that we had only 25 minutes to do it...unless saying that i suck at analytical writing counts as an excuse...?
em...♥

pressure

in class on friday, mr. watson was talking about how he keeps bragging to everyone about how great all our blogs are. a bunch of my classmates, including me, felt pressured. we wanted to make our posts look smart and nice, so when plenty people saw our blogs, we wouldn't appear stupid. basically, we wouldn't be ourselves. mr. watson told us not to do that and not change anything about our blogs. this got me thinking... why do people change so much for other people? because, when you think about it, life is all about changing for other people. when i'm around my mom, i don't drag my slippers on the ground, cause i know she hates that. i'm changing for her. when my friend natalia eats with me, she's making an effort not to smack her lips, cause she knows i hate that. she's changing for me. but, in both these situations, the people change because another person asks them too. what are the other reasons people change? ...the media? ...friends? ...what they're told/what they hear? ...what they see? ...self-conciousness? another question...if all we do in life is change for other people, every time we change... ...don't we become less and less of an individual? em...♥

view from above

okay, so this whole view from above... we're supposed to pick a special place and give a detailed description of it from "above"...at first i thought, above?! and then i thought, what special place am i going to describe?! so, i was stuck from the beginning, pretty much. well, for my special place i chose a theatre. theatre is someplace really special to me, and i feel so comfortable and at home whenever i'm onstage. my current stage is at mamiya theatre (saint louis school) for beauty and the beast. the stage has so many colors, you get slightly dizzy staring at it for too long. it starts with a bright yellow-ish orangey oval centerstage. it stretches further stage right and left than downstage and upstage. (some people might have absolutely no clue what the hell i'm talking about, cause this is all theatre lingo) the comes a dark but bright deep blue, but not indigo. then a warm red, but not deep, and then a green-turquoise kind of color. after these colors finish, two black lines extend outward on each side downstage and upstage from the oval. the warm red in the middle, followed by the yellow (my personal favorite) on either side, and then the yellow column followed by the blue. it literally looks like rainbow shave ice, cause you can see the primary colors the most, but if you look closely, you can see the secondary colors in between. it's awesome. the theatre smells like wood and paint, because that's basically what the set's made out of. it also smells faintly of carpet cleaner, because the carpets just got shampooed. it often smells like a mix of trident tropical twist gum (courtesy of emily-me, myself, and i), plate lunch, pizza, and arizona iced tea, which is always at the theatre. you hear lots of laughter and music, voices streaming though every crack in the walls because we sing super loud. the occasional swear word is heard by a few ears--or many many--and tons of shuffling and rushing. you probably still can't visualize it that well, but there's not much more to say about the theatre... em...♥

simple things

so, i've always thought that the simple things in life were really the ones that made the difference, and i haven't really proved it until right now. i just got out of the shower, and had to come and write cause my brain was gonna explode from all the thinking i was doing... so, i was in the shower, and i noticed that there wasn't that much water coming out from the shower head and it took me about three minutes just to get my hair wet, when it usually only takes about thirty seconds. and, i burst out in tears. at first, i had no clue why, but then i looked back on my day... *i STiLL haven't found my geometry book since a few weeks ago, so i have to do all my math homework at school with someone else's book, and i get super stressed out when i don't finish my homework for that day *i have a band concert tomorrow and sunday morning, and i'm stressing out about that cause i've hardly practiced, but i guess i set myself up for that one... *i had to sing in front of people and have them criticize me *i forgot my judge dee book at school, and i need to have it completely read by wednesday *my weekend is going to be hell because i'm going to be doing band stuff, working, and rehearsing all weekend, and i would be doing homework, but i can't because my judge dee book is not with me *i was tired after my three hour beauty and the beast rehearsal, and then i had to go to another one *while getting out of the car, it started to pour, i had an open bag with clothes and paper inside, and i realized i need twenty-seven more arms to survive in this world *my parents got mad at me for not having my judge dee book and geom book *and last, my shower water wasn't coming out strong enough all of these things are SO tiny, and they don't even matter, but added up, they make me stress like crazy... but, there's another side to this...simple things also make me happy! the best thing in the whole entire world is when i'm at a chinese restaurant, and it's family style, so there's that huge turning circle with all the food on it. and, i start turning the table and so does the person across from me, and i stop with the dish i wanted in front of me (usually beef and broccoli) and i say, "oh, sorry, what did you want?" and the person opposite me says, "this," and it's the one right in front of them (let's say fried rice). so, it just so happens to work out that what i wanted lands right in front of me and what they wanted lands right in front of them...i absolutely LOVE that feeling... so, i think the simple things make the biggest difference in the world, and i feel better now that i've written this...see how simple that was? just me sitting and typing on a keyboard, getting my thoughts and feelings out...simple and rewarding em...♥

privacy

so...commonplace entry time...and, i have absolutely no clue what i want to write about...i'm still having trouble with my this i believe, cause i don't know how to use garage band or any of that good stuffs...
anyways, i was wondering how many people like this blog thing...cause i think it's a cool idea, but it's so open to the public. and, mr. watson explained how we can just publish certain entries as a draft, but it still feels so public and vulnerable...
even though it's a very cool idea, i enjoy writing a lot more than typing, and to do this blog thing, you always have to be at a computer. and, unless you have a laptop--which i don't, may i add--you can't curl up in a warm blanket and write in your commonplace book while lying on your stomach, you know what i'm saying?
i guess i just feel that our commonplace should be more private, and tangible...
privacy is a big thing in my life, and i know that someone could easily peek in my commonplace book if it were a notebook, but people can also hack onto blog sites...and you wouldn't be able to tell if it was a different person as easily, because for a blog, you type. and, everyone has the same handwriting when they type, cause it's made for you already.
where as if we had commonplace notebooks, you would be able to tell if someone wrote in another peron's commonplace notebook because the handwriting would be different...
i like that the blog idea is different, and something new, but there's a reason why people still use notebooks for journals after many years, and it's because they're more private
em...<3

help, please

okay, so...i need some major help on my this i believe, because i have absolutely no clue on what a want to write about... i kinda want to write about how i believe dancing is so much harder than everyone thinks and why, but i don't know how to analogize (is this even a word???) it... i want to say dancing is hard because it's not only a sport, despite what everyone thinks, it's also an art form, so you need to entertain people while sporting. you also need to wear the most uncomfortable clothing and make-up. you dance on your toes all the time and have to deal with unbearable pain. the average dancer has 49 fractures she DOESN'T know about. this is just some of the information i want to use, but i need help getting started...please help me! em...<3

thinking...

okay, so this is only my second commonplace post, and it's, like, thirty minutes before it's due, but i'm gonna put more on later...
in singer's solution, he shows how dora makes the "right choice" by taking the boy back after she finds out he's going to be killed, but bob makes the "wrong choice" by killing the kid instead of destroying his car...
so, i've been wondering from the very first time i read that essay, what is behind our choices? and why do we choose what we choose? do we do it because it's the "right" thing to do? do we do it because it's the easy way out? do we do it because that's what everyone else wants us to do?

i've been thinking aboug all my decisions a lot lately...and i found out a lot of my choices are decisions i've made because other people wanted me to...or because it seemed like the easy way out. they are very few big decisions i've made in my life because i want to.

i've decided to really think about the reason behind all my upcoming decisions, because it can make a huge difference going the way you want, the way everyone else wants, and the easy way out...

excuses, excuses

okay, so this is my first post out of three that we were supposed to do this weekend, and it's monday night...the night before the homework is due...an the reason is my keyboard was broken...and it truly was, you know? but then, this brought up a question for me...why do people make up excuses? do they do it so that their "crime" is just? or do they do for people to feel sorry for them? and, why do we feel sorry for people when they make up excuses...even though sometimes we know perfectly well they're making up excuses...? em...<3

water buffalo

the water buffalo movie was very moving. i felt that it was extremely giving and sincere for that man to actually go out and buy a water buffalo for a family in need. the family's tory was a rough one, and it amazed me how the family reacted, the grandmother not believeing this was possible at first. she didn't think they were ever going to get something that could help the, that much in her life.


there are a lot of similarities between the water buffalo movie and singer's solution. they were both about how to help needy people in this world. they both gave examples of what you could do to help a needy family, and they both seemed like a good-hearted thing to do.

what i liked about the water buffalo movie was that it actually showed these people going through the process of finding a water buffalo, finding a family, and giving it to them in person. singer's solution didn't give any examples of people doing this, it only showed situations in the beginning which made me feel bad for needy people.

i liked the water buffalo movie so much better because of that. i liked seeing how the family reacted more than seeing what happened when someone didn't save a child. it hits me much harder when i see how the person being helped reacts because it shows how much you can really touch a person you don't even know if you want to.

singer's solution to world poverty response

so, singer's solution to world poverty is very relevent and sweet, because it is a big issue in this world, only it's ALWAYS going to be a big issue in this world, because there is no way to completely get rid of it, is there?

when you look at all the people hurting from poverty, you can realize that the fact is they're not as well endowed as punahou studets are. they aren't all homeless and living in the streets...some of them have stuff.

so, the truth is, poverty is going to follow us no matter how hard we try because the people suffering from poverty are just the poorest ones in the world. so, they may have huge mansions on the island of kaua`i and twenty-seven beautiful cars, but if the rest of the world has their own private islands and, let's say, twenty-eight cars, the people with mansions are going to still suffer from poverty.

it's true that we should all give something, and it doesn't even need to be money. it can be old or used clothes, toys, dishes, anything. the thing is, it doesn't even have to be new, and the person you're sending it to will probably love it more than you ever could.

so, singer's point is quite relevent, because everyone should make an effort to donate somethings at least once a year. but, for him to think this is the solution to world poverty is absurd. it just doesn't make sense, seeing that thre will always be poverty in this world. it's something that keeps the world spinning.

FiRST BLOG

okay...so this is my first blog, and i'm trying out this "webdings" font, and i have no clue what it looks like...so i hope it looks nice...well, i don't really know what else to do, so i'll just post this now. okie dokie. bye bye.
...<3 em