i hate this

right now i am really sad and mad and screwed up cause i had this huge fight with my mom last night about managing my time. i know i do have a lot going on right now, and that's fine with me cause i absolutely love having a busy schedule...i think it makes me feel useful in this world or some shit like that... so...i'm in this musical, beauty and the beast at saint louis, and if you don't know, musicals take up tons of time. a rough estimation shows that for every minute of showtime in front of an audience, the cast and crew needs two hours to rehearse it. two hours for one minute! that's crazy...i just opened this weekend, so i've been busy with rehearsals and shows this weekend, and it's gonna be like that for the next two weeks... i also have school, which i normally keep under control, except recently i've been getting behind in my work, especially english cause i don't spend a lot of time at home by a computer... i have a job which is also performing. i go to various middle schools and teach them about the danger of smoking tobacco. i also go to various high schools and tech them about teen pregnancy and std's. because i perform and middle schools and high schools, i need to take time from my school schedule to work, which is what i did this morning. i also have to go to various trainings every so often so i can be educated about the stuff i educate people about. i really love performing--it's my passion--and i've seriously thought of dropping out of school and just performing for the rest of my life. but, i know that unreasonable...well, i'm supposed to go to this tobacco training for six hours on saturday, but i can't cause my mom said so. only, i think i can, cause i have nothing going on during that time and i won't have to laze around the house all day. but, my mom thinks it's too much cause i had a three hour rehearsal last night, a three hour rehearsal tonight, a show earlier today (which takes three hours counting set-up and break-down), and another show on thurdsday. so, she thinks i shouldn't go to the training on saturday cause it's too much. ...only, i came late to the rehearsal last night, the show today, and i'm coming late for the show on thursday cause i have school or beauty and the beast. so, i haven't even been working full time. and now i want to quit. as much as i love this job, i just wanna quit cause i hate not being able to do something i love. it just kills me cause i'm physically capable of doing it, but she thinks it's too much. only, ow does she know what's too much for me, she just thinks she knows what's too much for me. but she really doesn't so, now i have to quit this job, which i've been pulling off for over a year, and i love it so much...and in 45 minutes i have another rehearsal, and i'm gonna tell my boss i'm planning on quitting. i'll commonplace after to let you know what's going on. bye for now...em...♥

sat essay reflection

i think all the sat practice essays i read were good. they all had intro and conclusion paragraphs, and they all had two or three main body paragraphs supported with facts and observations. what i noticed is that the practice essays were kind of like our this i believes cause they both had our opinions, facts and observations proving why we make sense, our individual voices shining through, and relatable information. i thought all the essays i read were pretty darn good for something we threw together in 25 minutes with no warning! good job, guys! em...♥