pressure

in class on friday, mr. watson was talking about how he keeps bragging to everyone about how great all our blogs are. a bunch of my classmates, including me, felt pressured. we wanted to make our posts look smart and nice, so when plenty people saw our blogs, we wouldn't appear stupid. basically, we wouldn't be ourselves. mr. watson told us not to do that and not change anything about our blogs. this got me thinking... why do people change so much for other people? because, when you think about it, life is all about changing for other people. when i'm around my mom, i don't drag my slippers on the ground, cause i know she hates that. i'm changing for her. when my friend natalia eats with me, she's making an effort not to smack her lips, cause she knows i hate that. she's changing for me. but, in both these situations, the people change because another person asks them too. what are the other reasons people change? ...the media? ...friends? ...what they're told/what they hear? ...what they see? ...self-conciousness? another question...if all we do in life is change for other people, every time we change... ...don't we become less and less of an individual? em...♥

view from above

okay, so this whole view from above... we're supposed to pick a special place and give a detailed description of it from "above"...at first i thought, above?! and then i thought, what special place am i going to describe?! so, i was stuck from the beginning, pretty much. well, for my special place i chose a theatre. theatre is someplace really special to me, and i feel so comfortable and at home whenever i'm onstage. my current stage is at mamiya theatre (saint louis school) for beauty and the beast. the stage has so many colors, you get slightly dizzy staring at it for too long. it starts with a bright yellow-ish orangey oval centerstage. it stretches further stage right and left than downstage and upstage. (some people might have absolutely no clue what the hell i'm talking about, cause this is all theatre lingo) the comes a dark but bright deep blue, but not indigo. then a warm red, but not deep, and then a green-turquoise kind of color. after these colors finish, two black lines extend outward on each side downstage and upstage from the oval. the warm red in the middle, followed by the yellow (my personal favorite) on either side, and then the yellow column followed by the blue. it literally looks like rainbow shave ice, cause you can see the primary colors the most, but if you look closely, you can see the secondary colors in between. it's awesome. the theatre smells like wood and paint, because that's basically what the set's made out of. it also smells faintly of carpet cleaner, because the carpets just got shampooed. it often smells like a mix of trident tropical twist gum (courtesy of emily-me, myself, and i), plate lunch, pizza, and arizona iced tea, which is always at the theatre. you hear lots of laughter and music, voices streaming though every crack in the walls because we sing super loud. the occasional swear word is heard by a few ears--or many many--and tons of shuffling and rushing. you probably still can't visualize it that well, but there's not much more to say about the theatre... em...♥